Is anyone else losing their damn minds waiting for new Doctor Who? We don't even get the next special till November?!

Losing David Tennant is hard enough, but the wait to see what happens next is a lot like going to the dentist. I keep forgetting how far away the next special is and looking it up, only to have my hopes crushed.

The good news is, reruns on sci-fi have almost quieted my righteous hunger for more Doctor Who.

But only almost.

Um, was gunna scan all this 18x24 work.

Then I realized how big 18x24 is.

So...

I think I will follow up on scanning some old work that never got put up. Go journals for giving some direction to me. Expect a wave of deviations from various years.

God i've been inactive lately! It's not like a sudden wave, it's progressed over time. It started as highschool ended and seems to have progressively destroyed my ability to be optimistic about art and have fun with it.

Lately i've remedied the fun part by just drawing for me, but reality seems content to remind me i'm not a fictional character based on a real one. It seems to be saying, "Hey, you hit 21 and you really can't play kiddy games now."

I changed my major to psychology on a whim out of a mix of desperation and sadness at the slow decline into status quo living.

It isn't even that i haven't felt creative, I just feel a bit hollow and sad. It's like for 20 years you ride a bus towards a destination being hyped and given fanciful description, all the while noting how dull the trip there is and how all you see is desert and tumbleweed.

Then of course, you arrive and you just ask yourself where it all went.

Being an existential person makes the all very offensive to me. Believing in things like human will power and celebrating concepts derived from Alchemy and Shamanism makes this out to be the worst experience of my life to date. I'm considering going back on medications for my temperament. When I got off them (diagnosed bi-polar) i felt liberated and better and happier but now it's just this dull and sedated landscape, ala my bus ride, but worse because i'm stranded standing still in it.

Cadillac Michigan is falling slowly into the dumpster on the money side of things, i'm 21 and live my mother because I can't force myself to care about a job and all I can do is bitch on the internet because it's a black hole for gravity.

And then the irony that as a deviant for 6 six years and had only a small following of friends and fans, a minute population of people who could help me pull through this will even see this.

And most of them, if seeing it, would repeat the advice i often fail to take from myself:

Get the f**k over it and try again.

Who knows. Maybe I will. I might scan some older sketches to get my brain back in order. I have 3 years of sketchbooks from college I was never up to scanning.

So bad. SO BAD. Having seen about half of it so far i'm pretty much amazed at how bad this all is. The drama is totally ruined by the way the plot meanders and the characters change with out actually developing.

The story is such a mess and the acting is so universally bad that none of the stuff you might enjoy besides will even phase you.

If Watchmen was an example of almost panel for panel accuracy in a comic adaptation, this is pretty much the opposing end of the spectrum.

Remember Batman and Robin? The movie that put the nail in the batman film franchise for years?

Yup. This will do that for Dragonball.